AHHHHH
I’ve cleaned them all up
sorted them all out
and the longer i keept going
the more that just keep appearing!!
now they are single instances of awesome
instead of groups
every page is now more important than the last
and eventaully it sorts itself out so i am left with mearly
http://www.sacred-texts.com/eso/khw/khw10.htm
and
intense music to envelop my auditory senses
random words to excite my imagination
abundant synchronicity to thrive , share and enjoy 
once the “great leaps” of synchrnicity all come together and sort themselves out
once they are no longer large amazing and unfounded coincidences made by different pieces of the clock aligning
once they become the very life fluid of every decision, every happening, every move i make and decision i intend,
once life becomes a simple, unconrolled, unimpeeded flow of synchonicity…
so i open my firefox from last night
recently ejoying the ctrl-shift-e tool for organising my crazy open everything first, and synchro find what i need my free browsing through excitement once its all open
over the last couple of days i have lost some fairly large and major “collections” of tabs that i thought “meant something” at the time
by loose mouseclicks, tired eyes, or electrical faults i lost all the information
i just open firefox, ctrl-shift-e
there they all are
waiting for me
like 50 fucking tabs of syncronicity from the last day or two
RANDOMLY APPEAR AGAIN IN MY BROWSER
in two destinct groupings
sorted into smaller groupings of tab size
i have collected, bookmarked them all for safety
and cannot wait to go through them all to gather what is needed
what is so obviously, so simply, to be passed to me
random from any other point of view
unbelievable from any other point other
I guess there is only one thing to say…
and that is I FUCKING LOVE THIS SHIT.
so i ended up being called by the brightly shining and luscious green backyard shinning through the window
laying in the sun, baked and baking, i wrote this for me, you, us, as my account for all that is (US) ?
enjoy;
this is what i need to search for
while everything else is on its set path
and out of my worries
my most exciting point now is finding someone else
you
who ever you are that is reading this
and is saying
“ooh i live in Newcastle and I am needing to smoke up in style with this Bebs character for sure! I like the cut of his gib”
if you are looking for me
and i am looking for you
our paths will eventually lead to each other
one way or another
i write this post with the most pure of my intentions
when we find each other…
who ever, why ever, how ever, when ever
it will be great…awesome…FUCKING GRAND
I look forward to hearing from you with all of my heart
filled to the very brim with bubbling excitement!!
Much love,
Bebs 
<3
random quote of the day from bashar
http://www.bashar.org/your-daily-quote.html
who keeps popping up along my path of awesome
“Use your imagination.
Come from The Knowing You.
Do not be afraid of the dream.
Do not be afraid of the dream.
Do not be afraid of the dream.
The dream is what will AWAKEN you.
That is the paradox.
Dare to have the dream that will awaken you.
Know yourself.”
I’m not sure if I say it enough or not,
but i fucking love this shit
just so much damm fun :D:D
wow wow wow wow
group lucid dreaming
i cant wait to get in on this
sounds like ALOT OF FUN INDEED
I’ve been taking a fiar amount of melatonin
(would love to try hupersize-a)
drinking a big can of energy drink
and smoking a bowl on fairly sleep deprived poor old me twice now
with exceptional results
ive never had any really solid results with lucid dreaming
until now
i slept for 36 hours the other day
and woke to find i had set alarms every 1 hour
and wrote down in pretty crayon colors what i was dreaming at the time
i am now just sitting down to smoke up and try it again for a short amount of time
a siesta of sorts
alarms every 15 minutes
waking, returning here and writing as much as i can remember
then back to laying down
i guess i will see where this goes
i believe all drugs and all physical and non physical states of consciousness that can possibly be reached
are all mearly tools at our disposal.
i wish to investigate for myself and share as much of this as i need to
i wish to set in place, and carry with me from now on a set and setting of my own perfect design
an ever changing from this point in perfect me, living out a perfect life, with the perfect people surrounding me and imspiring me and exciting me to do the most amazing things
step even further that i can possibly think now in my sheltered life!
I NEED CONNECTIONS
I plan to travel the East coast of australia
i have a car which i am *HOPING* to get ruinning on water
i saw a working model of a motor bike that had this and it was running
on 2012: time for change
i researched this a little bit but then got lost
and i am half way through listening to this
http://in-a-perfect-world.podomatic.com/entry/2011-03-02T01_53_30-08_00
which is just totally blowing my mind, i cant wait to get back to that
i need to be in the right frame of mind, so soon i think
but right now, through all this intense insiscent BAM IN YOUR FACE!!! syncronicity.
its like i have been planning this all along, for so very long
almost my whole life
lol, sounds so simple to say it, but my whole life has lead up to this point.
i now see that in a mind sense, i can almost feel the idea of it.
ugh, i am in love with this shit.
just the most basic things are becoming almost unbearably intense and beautiful
tonight for dinner M and i had sniddies which we had a coupon for and it had been working its way to us for weeks
somehow tonight was decided, tonight. and the perfect sniddies, with the perfect legal weed from the sex shop (between dealers…dont ask)
sitting down in silenct
after just smoking up
and takign small bites at a time and expalining it to each other
it was like the cheff had built me a piece of FOOD ART for me to enjoy on every level, the look, the smell, the taste, the texture, the combination of flavours
the hots and the colds, the moists and crispy,
a delicious meal of art to disect and i almost cried a couple of times, laughed a lot, and found some bloody good words to describe all these sensations
an entirely new way to describe your self, moving past language, sharing and experiencing art and food together
i think, wow.
i am so FUCKING HAPPY that i am here right now
on the verge of massive change for myself, my community, our species, our planet, our galaxy, universe, grander consciousness, my greater self?
it seems pointless going further now
why bother when i cant even breach past this point in consciousness in my current position
if i can get this much enjoyment out of such a tainted and ‘orrible vibe ridden society
then how amazing will my life become once i am on the road
finding my real community
making some real change in this world
spreading the love that i feel for everyone and my self
to spread this seed is what i am most excited about
i have realised this at so many points in the last couple of days
through completly different points of syncronicity
(again i love this shit just saying)
that my gift, is helping other peoples seed grow, be nourished and help them harvest the fruits of their gifts
i dont believe i can help and fix everyone
i dont claim to be some sort of qualified shaman or what ever bullshit
i cannot be contained in those boxes, lol
boxes was necessary before, we humans crave them in every form and shape in our lives to make things easy
i want to have a fucking awesome form of transportable mobile platform, which i have started creating
once that is fully up and running
i already have everything i need packed
i have been unconsciously working on my pack over the last couple of weeks
i have been going up to the obelisk in newcastle, australia lol
every morning about 4.30
riding up there on my bike
high as a kite lol
at that time of morning i dont see anyone else out
i take my helmet for comming home tho, hehe
so up there, there is no one
there is the obelisk
a smaller weird random statue and i like to sit right in front of that
i measured out the footsteps hahahaha
i cant remember the numbers
but just imagine me stumbling around all smackey at 4.30 in the morning at the top of a hill lit up like a christmas tree trying to measure the distance so i can work out where to sit
anyway, one thing leads to another,
im wasting alot of money on inferior product in terms of the legal weed i get from the sex shop
it is AMAZING the places it is taking me
i can see why weed is classed as a weak psychedelic
it is blowing my mind and this is the crappy legal stuff from new zealand!!
i need to get something pure and something clean
something that will be my little friend on the road
i have the perfect name for what it is that i want
“synchronicity in a bag”
i watched limitless tonight
a recent film with the guy from the hang over in it
cant remember his name?
real suave, nice looking guy
so my mum rings me up out of the blue the other day
says dad took her to see this, and it reminded her of me
random, i download it and its a horrible indian cinema filming, bah, let it go
couple days later my best friend suggests i watch it because its right up my alley
and then tonight i run into a couple posts about syncronicity and drugs and the whole tzp from the movie comes up
now i am hankering for this sort of thing
not for the mental side of it
i dont want to be making money here lol
imagine if that power was directed, in combination with love
and caring and excitement for the community
imagine what we could do?
synchronicity in a bag. i like it.
the search for, with the intent of the gifting of…
so sorry if that was well long and all over the place
i just kind of smoke sit down and start typing
and hope to god i can hang on to the physical enough while playing out this awesome in my headspace
this is only a glimpse of what is going on deeper
hahahaha
but i guess a number of small glimpses of the whole picture of time equals…:)
so i guess if youve stuck it out this far
you can at least appreciate my scatteredness
i would love to connect with you
share your scatteredness
and the comming together of our scatteredness
hahahahaha
the shit that comes out of my mouth.
i am going to listen to this now
http://in-a-perfect-world.podomatic.com/entry/2011-03-02T01_53_30-08_00
it was blowing my mind before
and i have no doubt it will blow my mind now
much love directly to you,
Bebs
i am embarking now on a journey and do not know where it will take me
but i know because i have laid the best intentions forth for it
it will be grand.
i will become a location independant trip consultant
or in other words a completly on a whim transplantable trip buddy, tripping buddy, teacher, student, friend, lover sharer of information about mobility and abundance
for anyone i meet along this crazy little thing we call life
and all the different things we want to experience in it…what ever they may be.
a completly underground opperation
one run from a place of love
from the ground up to go with our new way of thinking
one that connects people with everything they need
from power and water and materials they can produce all by them selves
to how to grow plants in any conditions in any location
to live in abundance in every way possible and be as nomadic and transplantable as possible
it is all out there im good old cyber space
we simply gather it up (probably already under way, yay for synchronicity )
find out the highest quality of ways to do it all and make it producable in a simple, efficient, recyclable, well thought out mobile way
then give it to these people and these communities that need it
we create a system right under the current system
we amass under it, stealing its power
providing people the ability to easily walk away from what they know they fucking well do not want!!!
MAKE IT EASY FOR THEM
we can provide it right now, it is all out there on the internet
we can provide all this information to anyone anywhere
the means to produce exactly what they need at the height of human possibility in all aspects!
this seems almost too good to be true?
and yet here it is, amazing me as I type it.
I hope you enjoyed the read,
behnterrell@gmail.com
if you got this far, I would love to talk
much love,
Bebs.
WOW this right here
is blowing my mind apart, its like a dream material
from every concievable aspect
I cant wait until they make personal “silk sewing machines” to create all that amazing stuff for myself
I got a new bag of smokables last night 
went for a midnight ride to pick it up and then rode up to the obelisk where you can see over the whole of Newcastle and the beach
such a clear night
after looking at the stars for a while, the very slow movement lets you kind of get a feel of the distance of things, I found myself being able to tell the planet apart from the stars, and what i felt to be even further away from the stars in our galaxy
to top it all off a shooting star just before i packed up to go 
to be thinking in a context of such extreme space for a time,
and then to bring myself back to earth size
and civilisation size while riding slowly through the streets, almost feeling the people all snug in their homes
returning to my own cosy warm home
and connect to the internet
connect to everyone in their own private worlds
exhilarating.
such a surprisingly good first smoke
i LOVE this shit at the moment
just instant awesome conscious state in plant form
